Who Is Your Truly Mr. Right?

Heart beats faster, your world turns brighter, and you're getting hard (sometimes). That's when you start falling in love with someone (you believe) you can share your world with. The thing is, IS IT?

Well,

We ever fell in love, if not, often. Just like I did.

Every time I fall in love with someone I believe the person is just the best for me. I'm drowning into the deep love fantasy, hypnotized by the beauty of romance's colors, and paralyzed by the spell of misleading whispers of desire.

Love is when we're falling in love, most of us believe it is.

However, love is, also, when we're breaking up.

It pleases, and it hurts, in the end. That 's love.

In every relationship we make, we believe that he is the right man, she is meant to be with us like till the end of time. All of us are trying to make our own stories, and we lead it into the happy ending one. Sadly, sometimes, the fact doesn't say so. We have to fight for it like it is the only option and we make ourselves work so much harder on it. When it comes to an end, we're flipping upside down like on a roller-coaster, whining, crying, blaming, anything. This is the hardest part we're up against but we have to. We deny the truth, we get depressed, we get mad, then we finally see.

Is she the right person? Is he my Mr. Right? As ain't nothing's going right then sometimes.

So, love's rolling and the ending is flipping like hell with or without anybody's intention.

  

What should we do then?

Maybe some of us keep on looking for the one and only Mr. Right, deploy all the maneuvers to fight for it or, maybe, we just roll the dice instead. The latter is just the right way to do, personally, I believe. Since, there's something out of our control. It doesn't mean that I'll give upon love I should fight for. No, it doesn't. I just wanna say that I don't wanna let myself get blinded and hard to move on merely due to the faith we've made and to-self-enforcement. Just be real. That's the deal.

So, who is your Mr. Right? Do we need him actually?

:)

  

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.....is finally BACK!!!!!

After like-a-thousand-years of waiting....

I can finally write again, fill this lovely forgotten-for-a-while blog with words, super words for us all to read.

Well, first thing first..

I'm no longer in Java, the most populous crazy island on this planet. Instead, I'm in Batam Island. A small LESS attractive island near MUCH more attractive tiny island of Singapore (You know what, it's only 15 miles away from Batam!) So, what am I gonna tell you actually? Let's just push the play button!

Batam is a tiny island located in Malacca waters, just 15 miles  North-Eastern-ward away of Singapore and South-Eastern-ward of Malaysia's Johor. It's a central business region of Indonesia's Riau Islands Province as it is set to counterpart its neighboring super busy Singapore.

What Am I doing here then?

Simple, I'm working! LOL

It's not really bad lah to work here even though it's a little, if not more, different. I'm working in the hospitality industry. yeah, I'm drowning in the hospitality industry and it's my very first time to get involved in this kind of thing.

I got a little bit .....er.......confused how to deal with this job. However, as the time goes by, I got used to it. Moreover, I enjoy this job.

Now skip the job thing and move to Batam things instead :)

What are there in Batam?

Many things!

When my feet stepped out of the airport corridor, what I felt was just.....HOT! HOT AS HELL!!! I mean, can you figure out how to deal with AT LEAST 33 degrees everyday? I need rain!

What I like most here is the food. SOME of the food. I mean, the Sumatra's cuisine and Chinese cuisine influence MUCH and sadly I do not really like Sumatra's cuisine as it is LOTS of coconut milk! No way lah for me to eat. Hehe.. But I love NASI GORENG SEAFOOD a la Batam! It ROCKS!!!!!!! You know lah nasi goreng, don't you? But, what makes it different with the ordinary nasi goreng is the seafood itself! The size of the ring-shape cut cuttlefish, the shrimp, and the "collision" between Nasi Goreng Jawa and Chinese's twist makes it look and taste like a leisure with pleasure. And...it's not over yet, as Durian Juice is waiting for you to close the muchy-time! You know what, It's only IDR15,000.00 for Nasi Goreng seafood and ONLY IDR10,000.00 for the juice!!!!!!! You don't even need a calculator to sum it up!

However, It's quite hard to find carrot juice here as it's sooo expensive! I mean, the carrot! My friend here told me that she once bought 3 carrots and it cost IDR12,000.00! And I once bought carrot juice here which was IDR8,000.00 and it was more like water than the carrot juice instead. It's disappointing lah.

There're so many things to share here about Batam, but now now lah. Later! :)

 

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Songs Of the Year 2012

Songs of the Year: 2012 The Chronicle (Part 2)

I love You by Avril Lavigne

Well, lagu ini mengingatkanku pada apa yang aku alami di Q3 tahun 2012: I’m in love with my friend. Untuk kesekian kalinya, aku jatuh cinta. D.mn! Cinta itu addictive ya ternyata. Demi Tuhan! Sialan! Well, mungkin ulasan lengkapnya bias dilihat di arsip blog ini yang berjudul  When Friendship Trapped in Love….kalo nggak salah. Silahkan cari sendiri deh. Well, jadi sangat sangat complicated proses yang harus aku lalui. Dan tidak mudah. Berat. Pertama aku mulai merasa ada yang mengganjal dalam diriku. Aku kepikiran dia terus dan bingung dengan apa yang sedang aku alami. It was axciting. Kepikiran dia terus tuh kayak orang lagi nge-fly mungkin ya (setidaknya yang aku dengar fly itu lumayan menyenangkan dan menenangkan dan membahagiakan, katanya). Aku mulai memenuhi kepalaku dengan hal-hal tentang dia. Atau mungkin dia yang memenuhi pikiranku. I just don’t know. Aku hanya  menikmati perasaan itu. Sampai akhirnya perasaan itu mulai mengganggu. Perasaan senang dan bahagia berubah—perlahan-lahan namun pasti—menjadi kekhawatiran. Khawatir aku kehilangan dia. Khawatir ketika aku harus menghadapinya I will get hurt. Manusiawi sih, tapi sangat mengganggu. Singkat kata, it didn’t work tapi kita berdua masih baik-baik saja (Amien God!!!!!!!) Lagu ini mengingatkanku kepada pertanyaan dia padaku “Kenapa harus aku? Kenapa kamu suka aku?” and all I could say was “I don’t know. Gak tahu..” dan lagu ini menjelaskan semua hal kenapa aku bias sangat menyayangi dia.

You're so beautiful
But that's not why I love you
And I'm not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through
And that's why I love you

Six Degrees of Separation by The Script

Aku gak tahu ya ketika aku melewati proses jatuh “cinta-gagal-mencoba move on” tiba-tiba lagu ini…ngorbit…begitu saja…tanpa tedeng aling-aling. Pertama kali dengerin lagu ini dan baca liriknya…menusuk! S.alan The Script! Okay, sebenarnya apa sih lagu itu tentang? Okay, way better in English, what actually this song is all about?

You've read the books,

You've watched the shows,

What's the best way no one knows, yeah,

Meditate, get hypnotized.

Anything to take from your mind.

But it won't go, ohhhh ohhh

You're doing all these things out of desperation,

Ohhh ohhh,

You're going through six degrees of separation.

Aku nonton televisi. Acara apapun! Aku main music. Aku baca buku. Aku main game. Aku mulai belajar meditasi ke temanku (sebenarnya dia yang menyarankan) simply biar aku bias keluar dari awan gelap patah hati (sedikit tacky emang istilahnya, tapi, sudahlah!). Tapi ternyata gak berhasil. Sangat tidak mudah, lebih tepatnya.

First, you think the worst is a broken heart

What's gonna kill you is the second part

And the third, Is when your world splits down the middle

And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself

Fifth, you see them out with someone else

And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little

Nah, ini yang paling menjengkelkan. Aku melalui fase-fase di atas. Jelas, patah hati itu sakiiiiit banget. Sampai akhirnya aku mulai mengklaim aku mulai merasa baikan. Tapi untungnya aku belum menyentuh tahap kelima: melihatnya bersama orang lain. Hahaha..mungkin aku sekarang sudah jauh lebih siap. Berharap kita mendapatkan yang terbaik, itu saja.

When Can I See You Again by Owl City

Lagu ini mengingatkanku pada sebuah keputusan yang tidak mudah sebenarnya, karena keputusan itu didasarkan pada realita yang nyata dan realita yang tidak masuk akal. Manifestasi dari cinta yang one side, masih! Aku tidak pernah menduga kalau ternyata aku bisa sangat down oleh sesuatu yang tidak bias dirasionalkan. Semenjak kejadian itu (aku bilang ke dia on the phone, simply karena ketemu langsung juga kemungkinannya kecil) kita tidak pernah bertemu in person lagi. Dan menurutku ada baiknya juga buat kita berdua—meskipun akhirnya aku berubah pikiran karena takut kitanya jadi awkward di kemudian hari. Kita mulai membangun mimpi kita masing-masing. Dan—lagi-lagi—I know dia orang yang sangat sangat sangaaaat baik hati dan pengertian. 

It's been fun but now I've got to go

Life is way too short to take it slow

But before I go and hit the road

I gotta know, 'til then,

when can we do this again?

Oh oh oh oh

When can I see you again?

Oh oh oh oh

When can we do this again?

Oh oh oh oh

I gotta know

When can I see you again? J

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